A Canvas of Ambitions

 Everyone knows Mark Mason, right?  He's got a couple of famous books, which I've never ended up reading. They would be lying somewhere accumulating dust and cobwebs.  Well, Mark Mason also has a Youtube channel. He's put out a few videos on relationships and love. I watched two, which gave me the shivers.  Mark, said that its easier to fall in and out of love several times, but if one's self-respect, self-esteem and dignity is compromised in the process, its very difficult to get it back.  The above words could be heavy. I could be accused of "overthinking" and being too speculative or even exaggerating.  Well, let's break it down. It's not necessary for your self-esteem to see a steep decline. Love, could also dilute your identity of self. Love could steer you coasts away from who you used to be and leave behind an angry, embittered shell of your former self. Since I went to university, love hit me like a thunderbolt, or if not love, then at least so...

 Prelims 2023 Result A result is just some numbers and digits flashing on the screen.  But, behind it, there would be countless hours of studying. Not, just studying, but a lot of non-academic factors are also taken into consideration.  I did not clear Prelims 2023. How do I feel? 1. Dejected. It is a knife down your throat.  2. Jealousy. Especially from persons online.  3. Inadequacy. When you see numbers like 14000 people clearing Prelims plastered on social media.  4. Lost. You end up wondering, how you ended up here.  If you think carefully, besides freak incidents, clearing exams is not a freak incident. Of course, there could be isolated incidents, in which somebody scrapes through and then after scraping through, does not become complacent, but proceeds to work his ass off.  I am trying to say here is such big successes are not accidental.  I should not be wondering how I ended up here.  I came home after college ended, with a pla...